It's almost been a year since I posted a blog entry. I was always waiting for the perfect blog post, the perfect content, the perfect OOTD or review. I would tell myself everytime I hung out with friends "make sure you ask them to take pictures of you for the blog." Which is something I surprisingly succeeded in the past year!
We would take so many shots till I was satisfied with at least one photo. But when it came to posting, I was hypercritical. "I look fat, my skin looks terrible. My hair is messed up. Ugh, this outfit didn't come out as bomb as I imagined it in my head. This isn't good enough for the blog." I would do the same thing when it came to reviewing beauty products or any other topics of interest that I usually blogged about.
That continued for months until the one year mark was around the corner. Then the pressure got even more intense. I made it a point to come back with a bang. My return to blogging had to be epic, unique and worth the wait. But as life would have it, I'm at a stage where I am completely burnt out. From my personal to professional life, everything has worn me out to the point of complete exhaustion. I'm tired, I am uninspired and totally bored. I have zero energy for anything. My patience doesn't even exist anymore. I just can't be bothered with people or situations that drag me down. January blues? Could be...
I realized that I am holding myself back from doing something that was supposed to be my escape: blogging. I created this blog so I can have a safe space to express myself. Writing has always been my passion and photography (in my case, my love for taking pictures with precision and presentation) are two ways I can express myself and create something of my own. As a self-claimed creative person, I need this outlet to be sane.
Another realization I had was that "perfect" doesn't exist. I need to stop being such a perfectionist to the point of self-deprivation. I was the only person getting in my own way.
This isn't the "perfect" comeback, but its a comeback and that is enough for me. The first and hardest step is always starting. But here we are, back at it again.
If you're reading this, thank you for stopping by.
xoxo
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